CHERISH

Despite my feud with one of my sisters, i am thankful that i still have my other siblings encircling in my life, giving me the warmth that indeed i am a brother to another two sisters and to a brother.
My beloved brother and his wonderful wife

For so many years in my life, and i have been harbouring a hope, a hope that no one knew and that hope has finally come to pass. The only brother that i have has indeed seen the light and the end of the tunnel.

You see this brother of mine has wandered so many years in wilderness, and for so many years more he was shackled with a vice that almost ruined his life, he has seen the darkest of life and been to the abyss of it too, he has called a sidewalk the home, his trishaw his santuary, he has been humiliated and belittled but i am glad he survived but one thing for sure, he is a man with a good heart and a fillial son too and he is just like me who would always be there for his sibllings whenever he can. and really "he aint heavy, he's my brother"

I am extremely proud of him now that he has indeed turned over a new leaf, for he is happily married with a wonderful wife, and yes he is a changed man. To my sister in law, i say thank you to you for giving him a hope of life, and for showering joy to my mother for her son could find someone as wonderful as you at this age of his life,,,, THANK YOU

Seated, myself and my second sister, back row, my youngest sister and my bro

I would like to say a big "thank you" to my yongest sister for her effort for organising the new year's dinner so that for once in a while, all the family members can come together and really enjoying one another's company.

Suddenly the picture above reminds me of those time that i used to send my youngest sister to school on my motorbike, and i am glad that she is now having a good life with all the children growing up to be fine man and woman.

And for my second sister, a woman with a good heart, and i pray that all good things shall befall her.

I guess as we grow older, there are really things in our lives that we hold so dearly too, as for me my siblings is something that i so cherish, and a little effort from each one of us, we can be closer as ever.

P/S : I am glad i have someone to call Sister and someone to call Brother

i once called her sister..........

This year's celebration of Chinese New Year really took me by big surprise., for i was saddened and heartbroken by one particular incident that took place during the first two days of the new year that really got me very mad at the same time.

I always hold steadfastly to the belief that in the event such as Chinese New Year, we should learn to forgive and forget one another, no matter how big the misunderstanding can be and how bad the feud was, we should learn to let it go, especially if it involves family members.

I guess my regular visitors to my blog would know that i have not been on speaking term with one of my sisters for about two months since the fiasco of her marriage, and she got fumed over my use of moniker or decription upon her supposedly boyfriend,when i denoted him as "mother fucking adulterer" and i wish not change that even as now, indeed he is one "mother fucking adulterer" and she got even madder when i posted in on my blog, which she claimed that i had humiliated her via my blog.

I SMSed her on the second day of the CNY, telling her that my mom was in way sad for she was not that for the reunion dinner, i just could not imagine the SMS in return that i got from her was that she made me the reason for her absence for the dinner, and subtly implied how much she hated me and my wife, even one of my children is not spared from her wrath.

In one of her SMSes, she demanded that i should apologize to her for all my "wrongdoings" in the presence of all my family members, of which i told her not a problem, i would apologize to her not for my wrongdoings but for the anger i caused her for not supporting her in the way which i strongly believe is wrong. I said that i would settle it once and for all, and i demanded the presence of her supposedly boyfriend, for he is the cause of all the strain and tensions between me,she and my mother.

I guess this is the best i can do, and from now on, i know what to do as far as this is sister of mine is concerned.

P/S: It really doesnt matter now, she is not my concern anymore.............

Merci Beaucoup..... Thank you very much

Hi Guys, My beloved bloggers friends, as the Chines New Year is drawing near, i would like to take this opportunity to say a big "THANK YOU" for your support and kind words and encouragement which have made my life so much better.

I cant thank you more, during this time of uncertainty and difficult, i am glad that i could still seek solace and peace besides GOD to have peace and serenity by blogging and by once agian your comments.

Sincerely, love you guys.

NOTE : YOU GUYS ARE REALLY PART OF ME, SERIOUSLY

P/S : LIFE IS SO MUCH BETTER SINCE I GOT TO KNOW YOU GUYS. APPRECIATE IT

Career Crossroad.......

I happened to stumble upon this piece of news while reading online news http://www.malaysiainsider.com/ which carries the news that a giant US chip maker with the initial big "I" will close its two plants in Penang, so i checked with my friends to verify it, and my friend came back to me that it was true, Plant 6, Plant 7 will be axed.

Call it whatever you like, economy tsunami, downturn, recession or even depression, but the implications and the effects that ensue will have far reaching aftermaths that one can fathom.

If you have enough money ready to brace the rainy days, then most probably you dont have to worry about it, but to those who live litterally from hand to mouth or those who have all types of loans to pay(housing,car, credit or even personal loan) just what would happen to them when they are served with the "Dai Shun Fong" laying off notice. It would be even worse, when you are already in your late 30s or even 40s, would it be any easier to get a new job as soon as it disappears.

It is a common pratice now that a number of factories are now executing some cost reduction measures which include shutting down operation, for instance, from this 25th of Jan to the 9th of Feb, the workers will have to use their annual leaves to hedge against this period of temporary shutting down and in the event that your annual leaves are exhausted,then there would be a pay cut...which in the end will affect the worker's household income, then there are loans that will be defaulted.

I pray to God that, he will show his mercy for those who are in need and giving them the peace of mind to whether the storm. And those who are not affected in anyway by this onslaught, let us too show our human side to help in whatever way we can to those who need our help, just dont turn them away when they come to us for help, no matter how little we give, it will make hell of difference to those who are in dire strait.

Lastly. let us learn to humble ourselves to believe that GOD indeed will see us through.

NOTE : i really need to add this at the eleventh hour, bumped into a friend while taking lunch with my mother, James is his name, a very nice man. He told me that he would be laid off by this end of this month, he is or (was) a sales manager from a reputable pharmacy US Co and the Comapny is pulling out from Malaysia as i was told.. no further elaboration.
(to my friend James Jeremiah, have faith in GOD and the floodgates of blessing shall be open before you)


P/S. If there are big praws and big fish in your plate, think for those who cant even have a proper meal..... GOD BLESS MALAYSIA

Really ! Believe it or not ?

Went to see a customer yesterday as i entered into the office, it was enveloped with a thick smoke, resulted from the burning of incense papers and joss-sticks. I was feeling uneasy with the smoke and the smell emitted, so i entered straight to the person in charge's office.

And as inquisitive as i am i asked the PIC, what all those smoke and burning of incense papers for. She told me her boss hired a so called a "medium" to help to enshrine a deity with the hope to bring back more business to the company as the company's business has plummeted quite significantly.

So they say,desperate situation requires desperate action, so is seeking the help from the super being could be the recourse? Personally, i dont believe in this as in Feng Sui, Horoscope and the reading of the future, to me life itself must be a mystery in its own form, and we as the "being" in this life must have the wisdom or sometimes stupidity to enjoy what life has to offer.

Everybody knows life is not a bed of roses,so therefore it would not be as rosy forever, it entails UPs and DOWNs so when we are enjoying the good times, are we prepared for the bad times?

I have got a friend, whom i may consider a millionaire in his own right and at the same times who stauchly believes in Feng Sui, and he could spend thousands upon thousands of dollar if his "master" advised him to alter this and that for prosperity. I always joke with my friend that with his faitful following of Feng Sui, then why did some of his business ventures still go under when so much advice has been dispensed to him by his "master ,"

With so much craziness and so much uncertainty in the present world, i really hope all the Feng Sui masters and the prophets of the world should combine their wisdom and expertise to make this world a better place, and to change revive the world's economy.

Back to my customer's case, i hope the deity that her boss enshrined should not be blamed if the business did not pick up for her company.


P/S : Let tomorrow stays tomorrow, and let today be today.

She's a devil woman..(somebody else said it.)

The following is based on a true story in which i happened to know in a way or another all the four characters. A lady friend and her husband (whom i personally know) my girl friend's brother and his wife (of whom i know like hi and bye, so the girl here i shall denote as SIL,in short for sister in law).The content of the story is evident(based on the years i have known her) derived from the conversation i had with the victim (my girl friend,here denotes as Kim).

I knew Kim since th 90s untill today we still keep in touch either by phone or MSN, i have always regarded her a normal good jolly friend (she is always laughing,joking) and it has never occured to me that she would confide in me as far as THIS is concerned. As marriend person, we always talk about family, children (her boy attends the same school as my two boys) and money stuff. With this friend, talking about marriage and sex is stricktly a taboo, as i could do with othere girl friends of mine, so i always refrain from entering the restricted zone with her.

But the last conversation via the phone i had with her was a total shocker to me, we started as usual, talking about family and whatever not, dont know how on earth did i begin to ask about her SIL, and only at this moment her pleasant tone began to die off, in return she paused for a quite awhile and asked me to stop asking about her SIL, i was curious therefore with my most comforting voice i asked "is there anything wrong with you or with her." She refused to answer,but as far as i am concerned,i have always had the uncanny ways of getting the answers from the most difficult situation,eventually she conceded,and her answer really shocked me.

With her voice choked in between conversation she finally said "My sister in law almost destroyed my family" as curious as i was i pursued "what did she do ?" and angrily she said "she fucked with my husband" there was a dead silent at this point because i do know her SIL and i was really shocked to hear about this, for this is not a normal extra marital affair, this is incest.

After a short pause she told me that her husband finally admitted to the affair and she was told that it had been going on for about 3 years. I really pity this friend of mine, she is in the most akward situation, she cannot go and bash up her husband's mistress for she is her SIL and she cannot go and tell her brother of what his wife did for she wouldnt know what would the most ugly outcome it would bring about.

When asked if she had forgiven her husband now that he had confessed, she didnt say a word she just said she stayed on only for the sake of the children. I stopped asking further and sincerely i wished her well.

I strongly believe an old Chinese idiom that it would be so hard even for a hero not to fall in the face of a beauty.

P/S : If she can give it to you, for sure she wants it back.

Shopping for thoughts

I have always been a frugal kind of person,and splurging has never been my trait and it has never been my wife's either but over the weekend,we lost the battle and our wallet were bleeding, may be it was the excitement of the coming Chinese New Year that was the main culprit.

I am really greatful for my wife for her sense of frugality, even she is earning quite well but she is not that type who clamours for top notch branded stuff, because she knows her priorities would always be for the family and not at all for her self gratification,for that i am thankfur for her.

So back to the weekend shopping, as we were browsing at the perfumery and cosmetic counter, so we thought"ok today's would be the day we would pamper ourselves" just to get that oomps feelings, and we managed to do just that and believe me it was only the surge of the feel good Chinese New Year's exitement that we broke the rules.

As i was merrily shopping and enjoying ourselves (me and my family), i used this opportunity to tell my two boys about how fortunate we were that we could still have the luxury of buying the stuff that we wanted, and i told them to feel for those especially the children of their age who are denied of this enjoyment and the importance of giving to those who are less fortunate.

I am always very apprehensive about showering chidren with material gratification, even as we could afford it. i dont know about you, but for me i have always wanted my children to appreciate the little that they have, and the value of things that they have and the joy of giving.

Even when my youngest sister gave me the second pants of her son, i was so appreciative about it untill my youngest boy was asking me "why papa can be so happy over some second hand pants" and i told my younges boy " because papa can save some money so that i can buy for you other useful stuffs".


P/S : Give thanks for all the goodness that you have

Stop it right there !!!!!! and Please Share

Hey, if you are reading this blog right now and today being TGI Friday and all, please do not just leave after reading the following,will you? please share with me your thoughts or two cents worth about the following, OK?

I believe in life, there have been many events,experiences,UPs and DOWNs, advice dispensed to you, people, even materials that you have read that have shaped or left the indelible marks in your life, WOULD YOU SHARE it with me? yes that one thing and just that one thing.

My sudden urge for this request is simply,i heard from a friend that one of his friends would never again in his life eat "Chary Koay Teow" after his mother demise, the reason for his action was because his mother's death had something to do with "Chary Koay Teow". I was told, the mother was knocked down by a speeding bike while waiting to cross the road to buy tha t food stuff for her son, because he wanted it badly, and unfortunate event took place 25 years ago,when he was only 15.

Sorry,that part i narrated was the sad one, but i claim to believe that are real events in our lives that really could shape us,inspire us and even making us a better man.

To be fair,i share mine. One event that really leaves the indelible mark in my life was my strong headedness and cockiness in refusing to talk to my father when he was leaving for his medical ops, and i never got to talk to him again. That changed me, i strongly propagate that any family dispute should be settled before the sun goes down, and we should start talking again after the quarrel, childish you may say but it got the best part of me, seriously


P/S : Thank you for dropping by and thank you for sharing.

That's why i love her................

Have you ever experienced this. when you are alone and you send your thought to capture certain moments you had with your spouse, and it makes you laugh,it sends giggles to your jaws and that feeling of appreciation that indeed you are blessed to have someone that special in your life.....

One of the common traits that my wife and i have is both of us are funny,comical and hilarious even to ourselves, we can crack impromtu jokes, churning out our antics, and being ludicrous as she is, she just knows how to make me laugh and that why i love her.........

I was watching the excerpts of past Australian Open (Tennis) the other night, as usual she just loves to sweep the floor in front of the TV set while i am glued to the idiot box. Suddenly,she knew that i was angry and slightly agitated then out of a sudden she purposely said "wa ! that David Beckham can play so good tennis one" at this moment, i knew she wanted to crack me up, and driving me up, and i threw back at her and said " dear, that's not David Beckham, that's David Arumugam, Austarian Open defending champion" she said "bull shit" and we both have a good laugh out of this.

I love being with my wife, sharing jokes, poking fun at each other even during intimacy (if you know what i mean) It is always fun when the lights are out and the clothes are off, that's why i never get bored being with her and that's why i love her..........

P/S : For each passing day, i grow to love her even more.............

The night i did the right thing........

As the Chinese New Year draws nigh, i will always get a lot of invites for drinking sessions from my buddies, which is kind of norm during the festive seasons and last night was no exception.

I was supposed to meet my buddies at 8.30 to my usual watering hole for another binging round, as i was making myself up to head straight out, suddenly i saw the faces of my family(my wife, my two sons) whcih were dimmed with dissappointment and my youngest came and clang on to me, and he uttered these meekly "Pa, you are going out ka? please come back early, i miss you".

I was thinking to myself, i was out Monday night and i must not do it tonight, and in keeping in line in one of my New Year's resolutions, that is to drink less and spend a lot more time with my family, i decided to go out for less than 1/2 hour (because i dont like to skip appointment) and came back home very early.

I managed to do just that, came back early and did the happy thing with my two sons, laid them down besides me on the bed, talking to them as there were having their bed time reading session.

Seriously, i could have made a lot of excuses to go out and drink with my buddies( as much as i would want to) but i knew there was a more important thing for me to do than "syiok sendiri (self gratification), my family has the higher priority for me than binging.

P/S : I can make excuse, but my family will cry hue

All because..... you asked for it

Do you believe in these cliches "you reap what you sow" "what goes around comes around" or may be this "do unto others what you want others do unto you". I am not that religious kind of person, but i strongly believe that's a law of universal. famously known as law of attraction.

My own uncle left his wife many years ago for a girl who is 15 years younger than he is. After his departure, his legitimate wife had to slog to keep the family afloat wihtout the support coming from my uncle.

Fast forward to today, his once young wife has left him for another guy after so many years working illegally in England, now my poor uncle who can no longer work is suffering the same tortures, torments, helplessness and lonliness his legitimate once suffered, and now he is reaping the fruits that he once sowed.

My uncle's children from the first marriage, depise the biological so much that they would not allow him any chance of keeping in touch with them for they know when they were small how their mother was treated, they saw her tears and now as cruel as it may seem, they are standing up for their mother, and it is pay back time for my uncle.

I always think, if i were to cheat on my wife and inflicting her with all the sorrows and pains, would i like the same kind of treatments if my wife were to cheat on me? The answer is simple, i love her so much that i would not let her go through this torment, and wouldnt want the same to happen to me.


P/S : Cheat and be cheated

I Love You Mom

In fact my mother is not as strong as she used to be,there is no denying it for she is already 70+, and it is most regretful that at this point of her life,she still has to worry for everyone of us. As the matriach, she might appear to be happy outside,but deep inside me,i know she is not.

Via this blog, i would like to call upon particularly one sister of mine who might happen to read my blog (the one that has severed tie with her),please make her happy with the remaining years of her life. There is no mistake that this old lady made could be so detrimental that drove you to say that you depise her so much.................

My mother and I, for every minute that ticks away,i want you to know that i love you dearly

If she could turn back the time, she would rather shut up and refrain herself from making comments that would incense you, but being a mother she was worried about you,she has lost sleep for you, she has looked out the window every night praying to her god that you would be happy, all she really wanted was for you to have a good life. Untill now, she is still blaming herself for the things that she did that angered you.

Seriously it breaks my heart to see that this old mother of mine still has to worry so much for in return what she is getting is all the misunderstanding and the scorn directing at her.

I know one thing for sure, she will be even sadder inside this coming Chinese New Year, she knows that one of her favourite daughters will not come to visit her, this year might be the saddest Chinese New Year for her, she doest not have to say it, i know for she is my mother.
For any parents,nothing will be more valuable that having all of her children and grand children sitting down over a meal. She would not trade this for anything not even a million dollar if she could have this come through for her.

Just a note to all my siblings (one brother,three sisters), remember those days when our mother would struggle to keep every single cents for our sake, why she refused to get remarried after dad has passed on (so she could really look after us), why she took two buses to work at night (so that she could earn extra) and there were so many things that we wrong(ed) her before.

Remember those times when we were in troubles,financially or other forms, she was the first one to come to our rescue without asking for any return. I know this old lady might not be the perfect mother of all time so to speak, but she is simply our mother who still cares for us, so let us make her happy for the remaining hours,minutes or even seconds of her life.

Love her and love her more when we still have time to do it before the time runs out on her, as for me from this time forth,i just want her to know that she has a son that loves her affectionately.

Seriously, if she were to be given a choice to for one reason in her life, that would still be for her to see all of her children, grandchildren to be happy, and she would still extend her hand should anyone of us needs her help, she would still starve herself in order to feed us and she would even surrender herself so that we could be well. So why cant we just do one simple little thing for her, that's to make her happy, sincerely happy

P/S, Mother i love you and i just want you to be happy, seriously.

Sunday 6.30pm

Papa and son saying "thank you"

To all my beloved blogger friends,i may not have met you in real person but seriously for your every effort, you have made somebody happy along the way,

And with this i would like to say a big "Thank You" to those who left encouraging and edifying words and comments for my son, Jovial. We will never know how our little words of encouragement can have very very BIG impact on those little boys and girls.


P/S: Because of you, somebody is happy...........Blessed are those who bless others

Your encouragement is needed here...seriously

Hi guys, if you are reading this now,please do me a little favour, i need a favour from you. Please go to my wonderful son's blog at http://www.famousedguy.blogspot.com/ and leave some words of encouragements in his comment box. I am sensing that he is feeling the heat of his exam.

I really want him to enjoy his study


thank you very much


P/S: Kind words can indeed make a lot of difference

Lunch interrupted by an old man.........

Just got back from lunch,but today's lunch is kind of different in a way for me though. As i was savouring me food, i heard something like this catching my attention "look at that old uncle,so old already and how could the children let him come out under this punishing sun and look at him,he is having difficulty in crossing the road"

As i swifted my attention across the other side of the road, indeed there was this old folk struggling to cross the road faced with unkind traffice,guess he was afraid and wasnt agile anymore, and as i looked around me in the eatery,the comment or comments about this old folk was still there, and no one did something for this old man.

I stopped my food and sauntered towards the old folk, as i was coming closer to him i asked him if he wanted to cross the road,with his weakening voice he nodded. As i held his hand and helped him to cross,i asked him why did he want to come out,he said he wanted to buy some food because the children forgot to prepare food for him today.

I held on to his hand untill he was done crossing the road, he thanked me profusely for my so called good deed, i just replied with this "uncle dont say thank you. one day i will be old too and i would need somebody's help too".

Seriously,i dont think what i did was something to brag about,in fact it was only something everyone of us should do instead of talking about it and doing nothing about it.

P/S : One day i might just need your help

2.24 pm

Seriously i think you're sick,,,,mentally

"Come on just admit that you need help,and it is no shame that you seek medical help before it is far too late and the damages are beyond repair, if you refuse to see the signs that others can see in you that indeed you are on the verge of suffering mental disorder however mild it may seem now,then you are courting with danger,seriously"

This is what i told my good friend (a lawyer) after so many occasions i heard complaints from his wife and his children about how this friend of mine who would turn from angel to devil in split seconds, and as his family put it,it is like living hell in the family because they just dont know when the bomb going to explode.

I remember there were times when my wife reminded me how temperamental i was, how i could be so jovial in one minute,and could be so angry the next, and at that point i knew i really needed to look deep inside me to see the cause and i accepted that fact that indeed i was not right at that point of time. I am glad that with the love and understanding from my family, this so called small problem is not at all a problem for me now.

As far as my friend is concerned, i guess the only problem he has is not that he is suffering from mental illness but what is more detrimental is his refusal to accept that he is one and he cant lose his face to know the fact that he needs medical assistance. What he doesnt know right now is his whole family is being subtly traumatised by his problems and this in return will affect the mental and psycological health in his children.

There is so much i can do for a friend, if he insists that he has no problem i cant bang into his head to ask him to admit that he has after telling him so many times but the saddest part and the victims are always not the main character,they are people that love him that suffer ultimately.

Just look at those people around you,collegues,neighbours,friends,church members and etc to see for yourself how many of them indeed have split personality. They are too ego to let people know their weaknesses and flaws, and they would just veil themselves with "Cosmetic characters" that seems so very nice to others and giving all their friends the impression that they are indeed really nice and anything otherwise seems so incomprehensible.

Does this seem familiar to you, after certain tragedy, we hear these comments " he seemed so nice,how could he kill his own children" " how could he do such a ruthless thing,he is a professional " or " we knew he had problem but we never thought it could be so severe"


P/S : We are human therefore we must know we have weaknesses and be brave about them

Days i forgot to say i love you

Today being the really start of a working day for year 2009, i am truly blessed that The One up there has blessed me with two new customers in the burgeoning days for the new year, and really thank God for the blessing.

This morning as i woke up and really felt that something was amiss in my life, i really felt but at that point i didnt know what it was, so after taking breadfast i vegetated for a while trying to ponder what was amiss in my life particulary today, finally i got the answer.

I totally forgot to hug and kiss my wife for a few days now and forgot to say "I Love You" to her as we both were busy, i was busy taking care of the kids and she was busy with her friends from Taiwan, without hesitation i sent a text message a brief as "I Love You"

I know husband and wife of the current age, we really have so many things to cope with, our careers, our works, money, and most of all the children. As we embroil with all these chores, if you dont step back for a while to relook at our priorities, then may be we wil be treading at the thrasehold of unwanted things to come. If we fail to acknowledge that that are more important things in our lives besides money, careers, children homeworks or scoring As,then probably by the time we realize it,it will be a bit harder to rekindle.

I know my wife for one is also preoccupied with her career, family and the children's study, so as a husband i need to do what i need to do to lessen her worries and to let her know that she will always be loved, and for that reason she will find strength to brace it all.

P/S : If you are breathing too fast, then you are missing the joy of breathing slowly

A lasting friendship

Just a question to ask, how many of us have really good friends and how many of our once good or best friends have now become our enemy.Just take another exercise, go look up to your wedding photos, and see for yourself how many of those who attended your wedding that you are still keeping in touch with, and how many of them you still know of their current status, keep the answer to yourself,ok?

My wife and her two good pals Jessie and Florence

I was indeed very happy and proud of my wife for in her life she has many good friends, and i was even more amazed that two of her ex Uni mates of over 15 years, would deliberately make their holiday trip all the way from Taiwan to visit my wife here in Penang. When i asked them why would they want to come to Penang for a holiday,their answers were spontaneous and uniformed that they wanted to visit a good old friend.

I knew their intention was genuine, for during their 4 days stay here most of their time were spent catching up the good old days, their Uni life, their families, their works and off course very minimum amount of time were spent shopping.

I remember, these two very good friends of my wife flew all the way from Taiwan 13 years ago just to attend our wedding, and i am thankful for their effort then and now.

Over the dinner last night,i suggested to these two wonderful lady friends of my wife that they should in the spate of every three years or so,they must come out with a holiday destination that three of them must attend for the sake of good old friendship, and that reminds me of the three main characters of MAMA MIA, it so wonderful and so sweet.

Remember Rosie, Tanya and Donna in MAMA MIA? three good old friends

Seriously we dont need a lot of good friends, we just need even one or two of good friends that will always have one another in our hearts, then life is indeed be very beautiful.

P/S, Good friends are just like memory in your thumb drive, if you dont erase it,it will forever be there.

Wait till you are old,, seriously

After attending a New Year eve gathering cum party organized by my yongest sister solely for the family members, i wanted to write something about it because i was so happy and thankful that my youngest sister took the effort for calling the party, and simply because such gathering of family members is so precious for me and because it is so hardly to come by.( I will divulge on this may be next time), even i was happy but i was sad and emo at the same time, my eldest sister the one i love the most chose not to attend may be for the reason best known to her.

Over the party, we all the siblings out of nowhere were harping on the my mother who is 73 years old now, one sister was complaining about how hurtful she was for something my mother did to her 10 over years ago, then my brother chipped with the same feelin. I was there listening sitting next to my wife, wondering inside why are they still harbouring this ill feeling after so many years, could the hurt be so sad and tormenting that lingers one till this day, i really dont have the answer for it,only they themselves know.

If you have read my blog entry with the title "the story of an old lady" then most probably you would know the life my mother went through, it was so no bed of roses for her. And now that we the children are all grown up, and because of her love and concern for her own children, she has courted the wrath from her daughter and even from her most beloved grandsons. They are angry with her now, because she was too concerned if her daughter could have a good life after her divorce, whether the new man in her daughter's life will not ditch her in the end, and if her grandson will find himself a good wife or not. You might say she is so stupid to worry about all this for they are all adults now but i can understand she is a mother and a grandmother who cares for them.

If she has insisted on the character of "couldnt care less" then probably my eldest sister would not have severed the tie with her, and even my second sister wouldnt have felt agitated by her grumbling and nagging all because she cares and loves for us all.

I told my sister about how my mother as a matriach in the family, with so many of us down the lines as sons and children, grandsons and granddaughters, son and daugther in laws, how she will never be free untill the day she kicks the buckets to concern about each and every one of us.

I hope my siblings wait not have to wait untill we are my mother's age in order to feel for her, i sincerely pray that they understand a 74 years old lady is a 74 years old lady, she cant be 47 anymore, and i also reckon that i cant tell my mother to stop worrying about each and everyone of us, she just cant.

I pray that God will grant her good health, and serene mind and always be at peace with herself, and i truly love this wonderful mother of mine, and i regret the troubles that i have given her and i pledge i will tolerate even with her screwdest remarks, seriously for i have only one mom who is 74 now.


P/S : I will always remember that i still have a mother who cares, and i am thankful for it