Monday, January 10, 2011

When i saw her standing there................

Last week was the first week for school reopen, i was back to the same schedules like it was 7 weeks ago, waiting at the normal coffee shop to pick up my son, chatting with my friends who are of the same mission like mine, Monday to Friday.

But last week was a kind of different feeling for me all together and that feeling lasted for a week, probably it shall continue today, tomorrow or day after tomorrow until i am totally let down, that feeling of sudden urge of talking to her, the crave of talking about the good old days and some other "funny feelings" that all of a sudden overwhelmed me..............

I knew it was her, i could tell her it must be her even i was like 3 roads width from when she was standing to where i was sitting, she still possessed that classy look, still wearing that magical smile and it seemed that she was still clinging on to her well toned body like forever....

Quickly, i stood up from my chair, went inside to pay my bill, rushing out, felt like charging across the road to meet her, as soon as i wanted to do that, she was already walking away to her black Honda Civic and drove away.

For the whole of last week, i was like a man destitute of hope, while i was there waiting for my son, i was actually waiting to spot her again but that hope eluded me for the entire week.

Now that the hope is thinning, probably i will not be seeing her again and i was like thinking to myself, what would i say if i really met up with her besides all the niceties of 'Hello, how have you been keeping ?" or " So you are dropping your son or daughter here ?" " how many children you have ?"

Never mind, sometimes it is nice to let those weird feelings playing trick on me once a while, it is ok as far as i am concerned to have some naughty thoughts zooming pass my mind and keep them as just some wishful thinking and those harbored hopes elude me and i enjoyed it.....

I was 25 then, now i am 45...... Thank God for my good memory (hahahah) i can still savor a little bit of those sweet memories......................"Here comes the rain again,,, falling on my head like memories, falling on my head like new emotions" Thank Annie Lennox for that beautiful song..

P/S : I am naughtily good... .

20 comments:

  1. I know how its feel...
    Is she someone you once care?

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  2. Your ex gf? :P
    Hope you're having a nice day Eugene!

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  3. t worry you'll meet her someday..when the time is perfect hehehe..

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  4. Like the song Beatles? U made her sound like Madam X...very illusive! :)

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  5. I understand what you mean by the naughty feeling. It is nothing wrong, I also have a lot of fantasy to men like Leon Lai or Tony Leong in my dreams. Kakakakaka!

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  6. Eugene, stop at where you are... family first no matter what, kekeke!

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  7. Don't worry Yvonne,

    God reigns supreme,, then everything else is not a problem,,,

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  8. Frankly, I won't miss a chance to approach my ex too if I got to see him again... since we used to share good memories together and moreover if it's someone we know, it's rude we didn't greet them when we see them... we are emotional being afterall.

    Have a nice day!

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  9. It's absolutely normal to have that feeling.. On my previous trip balik kampung, I spotted my ex with his family, wanted to say hi too but at that time my mom was calling me and when I turned around, they're gone.

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  10. "When I saw her standing there"...it almost like a lyric from a song. I had experienced the thoughts that you are having now..catching up with my old girlfriends. Don't worry, it is normal, it's human nature, not more not less.But don;t pursue it further down the road..ehehe :))

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  11. Well, she was just 17, you know what I mean and you were 25 when you saw her standing there. Though you travelled so far boy I’m sorry you are Twenty five minutes too late. Let it be..

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  12. i believe in fate. If there are, you will sure bump into her again.

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  13. Can it be that it was oh...so dimple then? Or has time rewritten every line? If we had the chance to do it all again, tell me would we...could we?

    Sometimes, we just have to let go of the past. On my recent trip, I met someone I knew in the 70s...and we were really very close...but this time around, it was just hello...how has it been...good, that's great...and goodbye, nice seeing you again. It just isn't the same anymore...

    Sad, real sad...but life is like that...and we just have to keep moving on - no need to watch the bridges that we're burning, not even for the good times!

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  14. Hmmm...i dont know...i dont think i will approach

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  15. It's alright bro. I'm sure you will meet her again soon, and catch up. Anyway, the feeling is indeed weird ...
    Sometimes it's good not to keep in touch too cos past is past. Can't do anything about it.

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  16. Thanks guy for your thoughts,,,,

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