I know how uncomfortable it is for her, i know the frustration, i sense the helplessness, i feel the pain but i just dont know deep inside her, the emotional part of hers, i just dont get it but i am trying to hold my own frustration to understand her feeling emotionally.
She is frustrated for she can't drive untill now, she can't indulge in her favorite sports like tennis, swimming and running and she is like under house arrest if i am out working. Her malaise suddenly made me felt guilty of me causing her the injury, it was like the devil was telling me, how bad a husband i was that caused her all the frustration.
It is easy to satisfy the physical needs of our loved ones, a sincere hug, some edifying words and etc but when it comes to filling the emotional void that someone dear to us is experiencing, it really takes more than 10 rocket scientists to come out with the solutions.
I have to watch my own emotion closely, for any of my negative emotion such as my own frustration would aggravate her emotionally, i have to keep reminding myself as of now i am less important for her needs are more crucial than mine.
When i saw the tears brewing in her eyes last night, i knew that i really had to stabilize her emotionally, keep the depression at bay (no matter how insignificant it may appear now). You might think i am exaggerating as if my lovely wife's injury is so life threathening but for her it is really taking a toll on her emotionally.
I thank God for this so called difficult time for during this period it is the time that i have to perform all the goods a husband should be, it is the time when i show her how much i love her through health and pain but at the same time i still have to pray for the strength to shoulder on.
P/S : To love somebody is to really love somebody