Sometimes i feel lousy being a papa....

So it was a Father's day yesterday, no celebration for me but the saying of "Happy Father's day and you are the greatest day in the whole wide world" is suffice as far as i am concerned.

But yesterday i made my eldest son Jovial felt very uncomfortable. he wept and in retrospect i felt like a lousy papa, so the story goes..........................

My Jovial was still sleeping as i prepared to go for church service, Jovial had to go for a contest in Chinese musical instrument which lasted from 11 am to 10.30 pm imagine on a Sunday, meaning i could not be seeing him for that 11 hours or so on a Sunday.

Fast forward to the evening, i called Jovial's friend up to inquire if they managed to go to final and was told they did not manage to, it was 8 pm after dinner and i thougt that i wanted to be a heroic papa and as to give hima surprise so i drove to the auditorium.

I was stopped at the entrance because i did not have the tickets, and i told the door keeper i wanted to take my son home( as i did not want to wait for the whole thing to finish, and i thought probably i could take my Jovial for dinner and to celebrate Father's day)

The message was passed to the door keeper,she went looking for my son, suddenly there was a lady with some extra tickets asking me if i needed the tickets to go inside the auditorium and i gladly accepted the tickets( i thought it was a blessing cause i got 3 tickets that cost RM60 for free).

Coincidentally, my lovely wife's phone went flat and i had to run to the car to tell her to park the car and happily telling her that we got to watch the orchestra for free. Now the problem began and i was totally to be blamed.

Initially i wanted to take my Jovial home early for dinner, now that i had the free tickets i wanted to go and watch the orchestra, how undecisive i was.

Went back again to the auditorium, saw Jovial outside the hall,he looked perplexed as to why i summoned him to come out( i told him the reason) and he said the teacher told him to wait for the concert to finish, i was furious by then. Angrily i said to him, i could seek permission from his teacher, i guess my stubborness put him into some kind of dilemma. He looked so helpless and i got so pissed off and i again angrily i said this to him," So Jo, what do you want me to do, you stay on and i go back first?" tears began to well in his eyes in the open space.

After much recollection i felt so lousy about myself , there i was with my 13 years old boy, i didn't listen to him, all i wanted was to for him to toll my line and he did not know what to do and i felt furious.

Finally, i decided to pick up from school at 11.00 PM, on the way i said sorry to him and he said "papa i love you and Happy Father's day"

My crime..................... i did not listen to him first and i was selfish.............

P/S : Sorry Jovial once again and i truly love you.....