Thursday, November 13, 2008

Bold-talk on Alcohol addiction.......

There are many forms of detrimental addictions,no need to mention them here la.One will always put a brave front to deny oneself that he or she is addicted, untill to a certain extent,it will be like devil howling at you to get your fix,and suddenly you realize that you are too weak to resist or too vulnerable not to submit to it.

And i know what i am talking about because from my own admission, i am on the verge of shackling myself with one, that's alcohol addiction........so i need to come clean.

I used to love to having a drink or two with my wife or on the eve of any holidays just to unwind and relax, without realizing it this enjoyment of mine has escalated itself to somehow a "must do" or a routine, and i just dont do it only once on the weekends but the frequency is getting higher to that extent about 4 to 5 times a week, and i knew that i am heading to alcohol addiction, and it is bad and i am scared.

Both my sons detest me of always having drink,despite their abhorrence, i just didnt see anything bad that i would impress upon them. So in my attempt to make them happy and at the same time that i could still drink,i promised them that papa would only drink during the weekend.

But that promise had generated even more promises, i guess my sons knew that i had broken my promises far too many times as far as drinking is concerned,but i was too egoistic to admit that,i thought that i am the king of the household,what right do my sons have in comdemning me,but here i am feeling sad because as a father i had betrayed the trust my sons have in me.

For me,i will never hurt the feeling of my family members,and i dont think it is worthy to do that, so now i need to come clean and acknowledge the fact, yes i am addicted to alcohol though it is not serious,but i just need to break that bondage.

You see all the vices in our lives happen very subtly, by the time you knew it,it might be too hard to come out of it.And i am glad that i could come face to face to deal it, and thank to blogging and i could empty myself through the writing on my blog,and i feel so much happier now.


P/S, Dont wait untill our children despise us to know that we are wrong.

12 comments:

  1. My hubby loves to drink last time and I think he is addicted to it but since he's now working in Hanoi he had stopped that bad habit. Worst is I don't drink and I can't go out to drink with him like you and your wife did..lol~~~

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  2. Hi bro. Very interesting subject and I guess many man are guilty. I used to drink lots too. Started with a few outings once in awhile and before too long I have my very own watering hole. I still enjoy my beer and wine (White especially) but no longer to the extend that you really want to get drunk, knowing that there is Ryan and wify waiting at home.

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  3. Hi tintin. My wife has the same problem too. She doesn't drink much although she would still occasionally accompanied me to some drinking holes for relaxation (with one condition, that she would not come out smelling like a ciggarate!) So that limits to only a few good clean places in town where we could enjoy our dinner and me, my occasion vice.

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  4. eugene, better go and get some advice from the expert on how to stop drinking...before ur kids started to follow ur step in future

    do it for ur caring wife and lovely kids...

    maybe u can try something else...whenever u feel like u want to drink, u go and chew the chewing gum ehehhe...ask ur kid to join u chewing...i guess it'll be their pleasure to help u chewing the gum, rather than seeing u drinking the alcohol...

    happy chewing :)

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  5. kudos bro for acknowledging. im not into drinking or socializing in pubs and bars, but the habit i have to kick out is the fags. yes, i smoke. in recent years, it was a cigarette or two, then the nicotine worked and i end up buying a packet a day. since ive met my wife, she has been encouraging me to quit, slowly. and now i stopped buying cigarettes and got full control over it. too much of anything is not good for us.

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  6. i admire your bravery in admitting this. so, to follow your example, i admit that i have internet addiction.

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  7. Occasional small volumn consumption is ok. I used to drink a lot too. Now, cut down to almost zero!

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  8. *sigh* If only my husband have such conscience over smoking...I will be the happiest woman alive. :-( Why wun he quit for heath sake? For our family's health sake... :-(

    He wun stop, and wouldn't stop smoking.... BLARDYYYYYY CIGARETTE NOT CHEAP LA, OI!

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  9. Anyway, thank God my addiction only involves tea and mint chocolates! LOL.

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  10. i guess myself also addicted to alcohol lately..sometimes i drink to relax myself from all those stress and yet also i drink for things that make me happy..i myself also do not know for what ocassion im drinking for..=P

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  11. I'm only addicted to alcohol on weekends, but not every weekend :) The occasional drink once in a while isn't a big deal really. PRoblem starts when you're drunk every day or can't remember what happened the night before that

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  12. papa,you are so smart!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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