There are many forms of detrimental addictions,no need to mention them here la.One will always put a brave front to deny oneself that he or she is addicted, untill to a certain extent,it will be like devil howling at you to get your fix,and suddenly you realize that you are too weak to resist or too vulnerable not to submit to it.
And i know what i am talking about because from my own admission, i am on the verge of shackling myself with one, that's alcohol addiction........so i need to come clean.
I used to love to having a drink or two with my wife or on the eve of any holidays just to unwind and relax, without realizing it this enjoyment of mine has escalated itself to somehow a "must do" or a routine, and i just dont do it only once on the weekends but the frequency is getting higher to that extent about 4 to 5 times a week, and i knew that i am heading to alcohol addiction, and it is bad and i am scared.
Both my sons detest me of always having drink,despite their abhorrence, i just didnt see anything bad that i would impress upon them. So in my attempt to make them happy and at the same time that i could still drink,i promised them that papa would only drink during the weekend.
But that promise had generated even more promises, i guess my sons knew that i had broken my promises far too many times as far as drinking is concerned,but i was too egoistic to admit that,i thought that i am the king of the household,what right do my sons have in comdemning me,but here i am feeling sad because as a father i had betrayed the trust my sons have in me.
For me,i will never hurt the feeling of my family members,and i dont think it is worthy to do that, so now i need to come clean and acknowledge the fact, yes i am addicted to alcohol though it is not serious,but i just need to break that bondage.
You see all the vices in our lives happen very subtly, by the time you knew it,it might be too hard to come out of it.And i am glad that i could come face to face to deal it, and thank to blogging and i could empty myself through the writing on my blog,and i feel so much happier now.
P/S, Dont wait untill our children despise us to know that we are wrong.