Last evening, I really felt like a heavy load of burden just got off laden from my chest,. You see I signed up for my maiden full marathon which is 42km Penang Bridge International Marathon and since then, I have trained and trained but I would always lose the tempo.
Along the way,I really felt like giving up,for so many times I would tell myself that probably I would just run the half marathon,(which would be very easy for I have done a few prior to this) instead of the full but deep inside of me, I knew that it was my dream to run or to finish a full marathon at least once in my life.
So,yesterday evening, I went back early, I sat myself down,I visualized myself that I would at least cover a distance of 35kms,packed my drinks,get my gears and I started to hit the road at exactly 4 pm in the vicinity of my house along the measured run routing.
So I ran and I ran, for the first 21 km, it was a breeze then suddenly tiredness set in and it was taking its toll on my body,so I began to hear the other side of Eugene was talking to me.
As I continued to run, I wanted to zest myself up with good vibes,I refused to let 'negativity" control me, I rejected all those "mental pictures" of me giving up,I just moved on and I was just like a mad man,who would just mumble,"Eugene run Eugene run" or I would just mutter," I feel good,I really feel good, I could run for another km and another km"
I was completely drenched and the rain hit my eyes,I told myself I got just another one hour to go, so I diverted my run routing (as not to get bored with the same routing) and pressed on and on. For every "drink stop" I stopped my watch and I was counting down.
I prayed,Lord just give me a little strength,just give me a little stamina and as I kept looking at my watch,I knew I could make and eventually I stopped my watch, It was exactly 4 hours and 3 minutes (covering a distance of 33.5 km) that I have run, (non stop,except for some drink stops)
I was ecstatic,I kept patting on my chest and I really felt like a champion,I know my timing was not that good and I know many of my running friends would testify to that but to me it was a challenge to my own self and not against anybody. I really felt confident that I could have no problem finishing my first Full Marathon about 2 weeks from now.
P/S : Right attitude produces right results..有志者事竟成