My struggle within........................

Met one of my friends the other day (the one that i used to hang out drinking), asked him was he still drinking, happily he told me he quit drinking and smoking for about a year or so now.

I am not a compulsive drinker admittedly speaking but somehow or rather i used to hate myself to the bone if i had too much of it, it has always been a struggle within me as far as my drinking hobby is concerned, never mind about the money spent ,rather it is about me and about my family.

Looking back at my friend that i mentioned at the entry of this post, i knew there must be something that was so strong for him to quit drinking all together and all at once.

Last two nights, i went out drinking with my lovely wife, my sister and BIL, during those hours drinking away, there was this reminder kept coming to my ear " Papa, don't drink too much ya, "

This is exactly what my wonderful lil Marvell keeps telling me whenever i have some drinks, " Papa, please don't drink too much" it has always made me feel very bad but making feel very bad didn't really motivate me to do otherwise, cos i always say to myself," what the heck, life's short a drink or two won't kill me." untill last two nights ago.

Marvell's reminder kept pumping in my head, i took the full glass of beer in my hand, i walked out of the karaok room, left the whole glass there, and telling myself "this it is, "

My motivation (determined to keep with the grace of God) is that i don't want to hear this coming from my Marvell again," Papa, please don't drink too much" this it is.

Action speaks louder than words so they say and i am determined to make that action comes to fruition, and those words shall be forlorn.

I want to be a father that my family can be proud of and making no excuses for it.

P/S : I am weak and i want to be truthful