When a man over 40 sheds some tears, i bet it could only be two things, an immense joy or something has triggered the deepest frustration inside of him, sadly i shed some tears yesterday from the latter, so the story goes....................................
I was having some drinks with my eldest sister, her husband and my lovely wife, we were talking about their impending marriage preparation and all, we talked and continued talking, then suddenly the subject was on me....................
My eldest sister was telling me how my the other sister had some bad impression about me on some work issues, and i shared with her about my thoughts ( i am not 100% right, neither am i 100% wrong),she and my lovely wife encouraged me to defend myself of which i refused. For me,once a impression is formed be it good or bad, one tends to have a fixed picture of a person and sometimes figures and numbers wont be telling the truth either. I might have the lowest number of figure,but it does not me i am the lousiest of all.
As we were talking, my eldest sister divulged that someone has agreed to continue paying for my another sister's insurance policy of which i had paid for the past 6 years as a love offering to my other sister, but this year i simply could not afford it anymore and that has resulted some unhappiness from someone too. As far as i am concerned, i know deep inside me i have been a good brother, that's all that matters.
When i drained down some beers, suddenly beads of tear came streaming down my cheeks, i was feeling rather sad, you see i am a person who holds strong belief that sisters and brothers are really and should be akin to the old cliche of" blood is thicker than water," for so many years i longed and yearned for that bonding but it seems so distant me and the situation is not getting any better still.
When i wiped away the tears, i held my hand close to my chest, deeply inside of me, silently i said to myself that i had done what a brother should do, ditto. And deep inside me,i know that i still and will always love each and everyone of them.
Last night,as usual before i retired to bed, i played with my lil one Marvell, out of sudden this wonderful son of mine asked me this question, he was there with me,probably he had seen my tears," Papa,what is important to you now?" i responded," there are two things. God and my family." he then said," papa good night and papa you are the greatest" with that i had the sweetest dream.
P/S : Blood is thicker than water, i wish i could make it thickest ever