Monday, April 05, 2010

Some Beers and Some Tears..................

When a man over 40 sheds some tears, i bet it could only be two things, an immense joy or something has triggered the deepest frustration inside of him, sadly i shed some tears yesterday from the latter, so the story goes....................................

I was having some drinks with my eldest sister, her husband and my lovely wife, we were talking about their impending marriage preparation and all, we talked and continued talking, then suddenly the subject was on me....................

My eldest sister was telling me how my the other sister had some bad impression about me on some work issues, and i shared with her about my thoughts ( i am not 100% right, neither am i 100% wrong),she and my lovely wife encouraged me to defend myself of which i refused. For me,once a impression is formed be it good or bad, one tends to have a fixed picture of a person and sometimes figures and numbers wont be telling the truth either. I might have the lowest number of figure,but it does not me i am the lousiest of all.

As we were talking, my eldest sister divulged that someone has agreed to continue paying for my another sister's insurance policy of which i had paid for the past 6 years as a love offering to my other sister, but this year i simply could not afford it anymore and that has resulted some unhappiness from someone too. As far as i am concerned, i know deep inside me i have been a good brother, that's all that matters.

When i drained down some beers, suddenly beads of tear came streaming down my cheeks, i was feeling rather sad, you see i am a person who holds strong belief that sisters and brothers are really and should be akin to the old cliche of" blood is thicker than water," for so many years i longed and yearned for that bonding but it seems so distant me and the situation is not getting any better still.

When i wiped away the tears, i held my hand close to my chest, deeply inside of me, silently i said to myself that i had done what a brother should do, ditto. And deep inside me,i know that i still and will always love each and everyone of them.

Last night,as usual before i retired to bed, i played with my lil one Marvell, out of sudden this wonderful son of mine asked me this question, he was there with me,probably he had seen my tears," Papa,what is important to you now?" i responded," there are two things. God and my family." he then said," papa good night and papa you are the greatest" with that i had the sweetest dream.

P/S : Blood is thicker than water, i wish i could make it thickest ever





20 comments:

  1. Good morning Eugene.. i do agree tat family is closest to us, whatever happens, we feel deeply in our hearts. As for our siblings, lets continue to be humble, i guess it is all that takes..
    Now you have yr own family and they are wonderful.. this is already a wonderful blessing!

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  2. you have your own commitments and responsibilities too and i believe there is a limit to how much we can help once we establish our own families...

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  3. We may not be able to make everyone happy. But at least we did. Your lil Marvel thinks you're the GREATEST! I think that's the best happiness for me already! Great achievement! Don't you think so?

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  4. Ya... to me i am already contented, seriously, i have found God and i have got one wonderful wife and my two lovely children and with some money in the bank too.... a few good friends, some sports enjoy (tennis and running)

    i am thankful

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  5. I am who I am, you are who you are...and we do not live in this world to live up to the expectations of others - just our own. If others have a problem with that, they have a problem not us - we have the right to live the way we choose and be happy! They say blood runs thicker than water...but sometimes, there is dirty blood too - and some friends are even better than family.

    P.S. Aiyor...your word verification: ashols!!!

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  6. To me family is the most important thing in my life. without them I will feel hollow and empty. :(

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  7. true about if someone has bad impression on you, no matter what they still will have a bad impression somehow.. until something happened. So leave it and let them think what they want. U did yr part as brother and that's all that matters. *pat Pat Shoulder* u're a good dad and a good brother.

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  8. You have did what you can. Not too worry, bro.

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  9. Sadly, it takes two to tango. We could only try our best. The onus is on the other party to respond appropriately.

    I wish you well Eugene. ^_^
    +Ant+

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  10. Girl from DownunderApril 5, 2010 at 4:33 PM

    "Therefore shall a man LEAVE his father and his mother and shall CLEAVE unto his wife, and they shall be one flesh" ~ Genesis 2:24

    Leaving your parents (or siblings) does not mean ignoring them. It means recognising that your marriage created a new family and that this new family must be a higher priority than your previous family. Fret not, Eugene.

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  11. A very touching post - it brought tears to my eyes. Everyone live life and feel things differently. You are a good man, Eugene. Keep up the spirit. Cheers!

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  12. it's okey lah...,no very big deal actually.but still,you felt "shiong sum" and that's normal.there's always a time when you have to let someone or one of your sibling "hates" you.last come to last ,everybody is actually "Alone". it's okey lah

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  13. Very touching story indeed!~ You are true Man to share such a deep story.

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  14. You are a great guy, loving husband and a wonderful dad, don't every let other people to put you down. As long as you try and do your best, that's more than enough!

    Cheers!

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  15. i agree with manglish.

    Each family have their own commitments. and, so do you.

    you have try your best to help your sister... and now i guess she should able to take the responsible for herself.

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  16. Hi Eugene. It's always hard one we fight with our family. No matter who wins or loses, who's right or wrong, you just never feel that inner peace and satisfaction. An argument always create that gap that is hard to close. And it's hard to feel the same once that gap is opened. I think we all go through things of this sort with our families. It's important that we don't harm or hurt people in the process.

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  17. Duh, you are married and have your own commitments now. Can't possibly pay for your sis's insurance policy when you can no longer afford it.

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  18. Sometimes there's a need to have a boundary of how much help can be offered. Your sis shld be more understandable.

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