I was on the phone with my mom, i know she has not been feeling very happy lately, even at this this age of her life( 74) with one daughter totally shutting her out, with me feuding with this sister of mine. I know she is not happy at all for sure
Over the phone just now, she finally broke now and cried, i could hear her sob over the other line, and i could really feel for her, suddenly i felt for her insecurity, her loneliness, her despair and her sadness.
To me she is so defendless already, she cant be a mother who could scold or reprimand her children, she is so afraid to offend her children for she fears that in return the children might shun her, might not call her, might not visit her, even wanting to get even with her, for now she is going through this trauma resulting from reprimanding her daughter.
As far as i am concerned, i keep reminding myself from hereon, that i would do all that i can to make this woman happy for the remaining years of her life, love a her a bit more each day and i know it is not that hard really.
Really she is not asking a lot from the children, may be all she ever wanted now is for all of her children to be a peace with her, to know that her children are ok, and to spend a little bit more time talking to her.
A note for my eldest sister, if you happen to read this, i need to only say this to you.
you can hate me, despise me and shun me but dont do this to this old lady.
P/S : She might not be right sometimes, but she loves us all the times.