I did my two and half hours run just now,went out for dinner alone,drowned a bottle of beer,(beer always tastes so heavenly after a "hard run"), came back,turned on the computer,literally vegetating in front of it,suddenly was caught up with my emo,when I went to my sister in law Facebook page.
There was a picture of my lovely wife and her siblings having good time,I got rather jealous of them, four of them bonding so well as compared to my own siblings,we are like drifting so far apart,despite staying in near proximity.
I really don't know why?,I long for a good bonding with my siblings like my lovely wife's but it seems to me that my longing always eludes me,I have tried my best to but it has always been futile,so much so until I'd lost hope of seeing myself clicking so closely with my own siblings.
Out of a sudden,I felt so sad,thinking of the time when I was not even invited to my own brother's wedding a few years ago,(my mom told me that it was only a small family affair)but was I not part of the family? I asked,I have never treated my brother badly,why I was not invited to his wedding, why why why?
My lovely wife used to tell me to let it go,whenever I share my sadness about me not having a good bonding like she with hers and I guess after a hard run,after a beer, I am really letting it go.
P/S : May be one day,may be