Last night, i did not know why i was kind of capricious with my mood, one minute ok, the next it
was like not so.............
The ok part was when i went out to run for two hours, drenched in sweat and lagi the ok part was it was running heavily and just loved the feeling of running in the rain. When i came back, it was such a good feeling, albeit tired.
I did some house chores, lauudry, mopping and drying up the clothes.( I love to have my lovely wife coming home from work to a clean house, she sees no piles of clothes waiting to be washed and ironed, no dried clothes not collected in)
Seriously, i was tired pyshsically but mentally i was happy cos i knew when she came back she would be happy to see that "certain things are being taken care off" . Then my not so ok part happened to creep in me when my lovely wife came back.
I knew she was tired and all but suddenly i felt like i was not being appreciated,"don't ask me why i had that feeling, i myself did not know" When she talked about her work and i was like turning a deaf ear to her.
I then told her no dinner for me, after my shower, i drove out alone for dinner, had a bottle of beer just to recollect.
Suddenly i overhead this conversation from these two patrons just two tables away, ladies in their mid thirties in the coffee shop.
Lady 1," Sometimes i just get very frustrated with all the chores, running here and there, chauffering the kids here and there, but this loa ang (the husband) does not seem to appreciate it"
Lady 2, " What happened, you look kind of hot and angry?"
Lady 1," I was half way cooking, then suddenly i ran out of cooking oil, immediately i called the loa ang to go and get one, he said he was already reaching home, tired and asked me to drive out and get, he is crazy. Ditto.
Life is funny, isn't it. We all want to be appreciated but we hardly say it out loud and make it clear that we really want to be appreciated, then if the otherwise happens (feeling like not being appreciated) we feel bad at ourselves and sometimes we might just hurt the innocent ones.
After drowning my beer, i thought to myself, my intention was clear for i really wanted my lovely wife to come home after the hectic day from the office to a clean house and with "certain things taken care of"
Have a great weekend, do say "Thank You" to someone today and God Bless
P/S : In the living years, say it while you can