Last week, i suddenly thought of a very old friend, a old friend that i grew up with, burning the midnight oils with, courting the same neigbour girl and many more things we did together, but this friend is no longer in sight, a very old friend that i used to use his home as a sacntuary when me and my girl friend were in trouble, but this very old friend is somehow unreachable.
He had run away with his family(wife and two daughters) to dont know where after he had owed some money from loan sharks, in a way i missed him for he had always been my friend. So last week, i decided to go to his old house and paid a visit to his mother instead.
His mother is 74 years old, 3 sons she's got(my friend the oldest 45, a down syndrome son in 40 and the youngest 38) husband died 14 years ago. When i was there talking to her, asking about her health and current situation and all, tears began to stream down her cheeks, she is now living alone with her down sydrome son, my friend has not called her for few months now.
Talking face to face with here,made me realized what really makes old people sad, money is already a secondary wanting to them, or rather it is all about their children. She told me that my friend just left her with a just a telephone call asking her to take care then he was gone.
She told me if my friend were to have talked to her, she would have done all that she could to help her eldest son(my friend) including selling her house and taking out her "coffin money" just to make sure that her son didn't have to go so far to avoid the "loan sharks"
I have one consolation after having a tears jerking moment with her, suddenly she told me she was feeling so much all right because she said she had become a Christian from her neighourhood christian outreach centre, she told me now she was learning to cast her cares upon the Lord.
So many times we hope we could do things differently or start over again, but then again.........
P/S : I am a father,but i want to learn to be a mother.....................