I am being truthful here, i know i am cool dad but somehow or rather i broke my pact that i had with my eldest that never to rod him again, yesterday i did just the opposite. I wept infront of my sons after the canning session when i saw the canning marks on hig legs but i knew i had to do it "you spare the rod,you kill the sons"
Yes i did lose my cool, and yes i was overwelmed by my emo and yes again i resorted to canning instead of talking which i personally propagated, but this time seriously and sternly i told him this would be last time that i would use the cane, i told him the reasons why i was very mad at him and why i even used the words "I am fucking mad at you " i stood my stand.
After the drama, as he was still weeping and my eyes were still moist,i looked at him and said " it has been so many years since i canned you and today papa lost the cool because you drove me to boiling point but if you are angry with me i can understand, and today will be the last time for canning because your are 12 now"
Every scene in everyday's life i humble myself to learning to be a better dad, i know that it is so very hard when emotion and rationale clashes, and for the children's sake adjustments have to be made.
I am thankful that my sons love me and i love them dearly too........
P/S " When emotion and rationale collide, we just have to do what is right.