Went visiting my mom again in the hospital, but this time i am not talking about my mom, but about my youngest sister instead.( i am 42, she is 40)
I used to be closed to her when we were in our teen, sending and picking her from school on my bike, then i was like a Big Brother looking after her (though she never knew that), i guess it was easier for us to click when were younger not much of stress, or may be misunderstanding.
She sent me home last night with my children in her car, the journey to my house from the hospital was short, but it seemed long enough, suddenly i felt me and my sister were not that close anymore, our subjects of communication was rather superficial, seriously i dont know why, how could this be so, we are flesh and blood, man. we are supposed to be close, damn it, but the fact is, we are not.
I can tell my two older sisters that i love them, but i just have problem of telling my youngest sister just that. I love my siblings very much, and i dont expect them to be likewise, but i really wish i could just tell her that her brother cares.
Anyway, i just hope that Money is not the separation of our brother/sister relationsihp, and money should not be the hindrance to our brother/sister relationship.
I might not be as rich as she is, or i might not be the brother that she expects me to be, but that doestn mean that i am not good and caring brother for her, i have my flaws but my flaws doesnt discount me from being the brother who cares and loves all my siblings.
P/S, i am glad i have this penned down, in case i am gone tomorrow, at least she would know that i love her.